Recently i had a bout of illness. The usual cold and cough, that affects 11/10 people i guess 😉 . But this one was special in its duration, and the kind of thoughts it inspired in me. I was in the usual eat-sleep-eat routine, but i did get some time to think on the whole thing. Specially because i decided to postpone any work and study to after i recover.

So about the duration it lasted for about 10 days, more than the usual 2-3 day affair. But what i felt during this time was quite interesting. In the initial phase, the first day specially, i just prayed for it to end. Because i had such a terrible cold, i couldn’t even walk without sneezing. I waited patiently for 2-3 days, for it to end. And when it did not, i grew worried why it isn’t going away. Do i have swine flu? Is it sinus? Am i suffering from some new flu? How can i be wasting my time?

Now here is the interesting point. Even most ambitious of us, with desires to rule the world perhaps, when they actually do get ill everything else takes a backseat. The only thing that you think of is getting ok. The world, The Work, CAT ( for me ). All this just vanishes in thin air. 10 days back i would have said nothing can deter me from studying for CAT. But a thing like common cold. And CAT hardly matters. The only thing that does matter is getting ok. The sheer change of out thought processes, in course of a illness, is fascinating. I mean, do we change as people. Do we become split personality?

But we forget everything else important or unimportant. All our worries are non existent, except to get well. To be able to go throughout the day without coughing, or sneezing. God!! When i look back at the time, i am amazed by what happened. And i dont have any answers too! I can just say, we dont have a nature. We are just shaped too much, by our circumstances and environment.