Its been sometime since I have written. A possible explanation as provided by one of my Chinese friends is ‘You are Happy’. If i try to analyze this statement, well yeah i have been happy and hence did not really have the urge to write. I have been happy about a lot of things. I have been sad a bit too. But i have not needed to write because maybe I had an outlet to vent out my frustration. ( Nothing serious, it might just be my new secret iPad)
Well so I was thinking about it last night while sleeping. Why have not been writing? I really did not have a lot to write about. I was drifting off again into the world of dreams when i tried to stop myself. I tried to anchor myself from the incoming onslaught of dreams. That is when i remembered the word Anchor meant something more. As usual I went into a flashback mode. I was trying to think about the comparisons I made between people who were single and alone to the rest of the world who actually had some friends.

What was the difference I wondered at that time? Why are some people so calm and unaffected by the world, while the others are like thin withering trees trembling with each person walking by. And then my thoughts drifted again.

I had this idea suddenly. We are all humans. We all want to be with someone or rather we want someone to understand us. Maybe love, marriage etc etc are just an extension to this. we are all continuously trying to find. We are usually trying to run after that elusive person. When there is no one who would understand you, you keep trying. Each person can be important and hence your life sort of can be affected by almost any person you know. Hence the analogy to old withering tree.

Since anyone can be THE ONE you are searching for you cant afford to ignore anyone’s presence. Or rather that’s how most people including me felt. You just keep looking and each decision you make can have that underlying presence of this thought.

But when you do find someone ( Not like a disgusting nagging possessive girlfriend ) but actually just a simple friend with whom you can connect and thoughts flow without need of words at times, that’s when you feel something different. At a certain point you reach a point where in a lot of things stop mattering. In a way, you find an anchor. An anchor around whom you can then base your life. You can then be yourself all around because you are still grounded. If you are lost you can come back to start from that point. All but one person stops mattering and this allows you a greater degree of freedom to pursue your own life without bothering about the rest of the world.

Maybe that is why we see a lot of people who are just content. They do not need approvals of others or suggestions for which movie to watch next. They can make their own decisions which are unbiased towards the world. Maybe that is a stepping stone for peace or contentment or enlightenment too.