“Are you kidding me?” This is the reaction to the events of past few days. I dont really know, what i have done. I needed to make a decision, and i had made it over the past 2 months. And yet at the last moment, i changed it. In just a split second. All through June i had been thinking, should i go for MBA at MDI Gurgaon, or go for a job.

The thing was before coming here, even till a day before, i was to join, i had decided in favour of MDI. The logic was that even after such a CAT fiasco, i had got admission to MBA. It wasnt the best college for finance, but i could make a compromise, and work hard, and get into finance and move up from there. And i would not have to spend time here and there, looking for a financial job off campus. But somehow, the decision was still hard and uneasy.

I went there on the day of registration. I completed the registration. But the whole thing, made me feel even more uneasy about my decision. It was burning hot. And the whole process was odd. I just dint feel in place at the college. I just wanted to let go. But i had this in my mind , that i should not walk back on a tough decision.

My friends, and even my family i think, were supporting me, but they really did not want me to go there. One of my best friends said the night before, “Are you crazy, joining MDI?” And i said, i have decided.

Then i was allocated the hostel off campus. About 2 KM’s from college. And the rooms were horrible, old and broken. The heat was unbearable. And to add there was no Air Conditioner or Coolers allowed. Was i to roast to success here? I just felt even more queasy about this decision.

I started thinking again, am i joining MDI, so that i dont hv to give CAT or interviews again? I had a option, a mediocre one, and i was willing to make a compromise. Why? When i can do better than this, and go to the best colleges? I just dint feel good about it.

Suddenly i had this visions of all the factors against MDI whirling in my mind, all at once. I felt, why cant i go to Harvard? I can. I can do IIMA, or IIMC or HBS or LBS. why am i settling for this? “I dont want to”, cried out every part of me.  And in that split second, the decision was made.

I wont join MDI

And i did not. I know, things have to be worked out again, and things wont be so easy. But finally i feel happy, and relieved on making a decision i feel is right. And so do others. Most people think, i took the right decision. BETTER LATE than NEVER.